| Sunday, September 19, 2004 |
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Starry..Starry Nite
I know it's easy for other people to say,"Don't worry, be happy".
Well, for me it doesn't that easy at all. Still, I have to learn accepting
what people say and want from me. I have to do this..do that. Please...just get
out of my life. Just ignore me for once, I'm so sick to be controlled.
Anyway, my mood isn't that good aswell. So easy to get upset, so easy to
cut just for a little thing. Ah..I just try to be happy in my own way.
Not with what people said or thought. I become more selfish in some way.
But, maybe that's the way I handle my loneliness here.
I'm really looking forward to get a good result from my interview last
month. Please, give me an excuse to wake up in the morning with a
proper purpose of the day. At least, Dunc called me more often nowadays
It's the only thing that can cheer me up. Gosh, miss him too much. Ah,
I'm doing yoga again now. Hope it could bring my balance back. The
meditation before go to bed is really help me to relax. I still prefer
pilates actually, but it's hard to do it here. So, yoga will do.
I was so bored today, like usual, then luckily my girlfriends came and save my nite.
We went out, had dinner, then played pool. I had some argument with my mum..again! I really
don't know what should I do and say everytime it happen. I tried so hard to control myself
to not bite her head off, be calm even it was never work. Oh..Mama,I tried so hard to
understand you but why you never stop fighting me back.
I don't know what else to write. Everybody has their own problems,rite? And I guess, no
matter how bad it is, there must be a way to solve it. I've been shared the feelings with
my girlfriends and we all have a problem to be solved. And all I can say was, "We'll be
okay,Girls. When things turn not the way we want, we still have each others."
Nite...nite,Surabaya. Let's sleep tight and forget all the tears.
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me at 10:16 PM
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| Thursday, September 09, 2004 |
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FOR THOSE IDIOTS WHO BOMBING MY COUNTRY..AGAIN, PLEASE, OPEN YOUR EYES AND LOOK AT THOSE PEOPLE WHO SUFFERS FROM YOUR SMARTASS ACTIONS. DON'T SAY IT WAS FOR THE RELIGION AND FREEDOM. CAN YOU SEE...WE ALL JUST A HUMAN. WHY CAN WE JUST LIVE IN PEACE...
AND FOR ALL THE TEARS AND BLOODS THIS MORNING....I'M SO SORRY
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me at 6:10 PM
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| Thursday, September 02, 2004 |
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TIMES
From the bulettin in Friendster, I got this interesting post to review all I have done in my life.
10 Years Ago
I was still in Junior High School, second grade. I was a tomboy girl, who hates make-up and skirt. Had my first and bad experient about love and boy.
5 Years Ago
I was in Uni, studying English Literature. Had a long relationship with someone, full of laughs and pains. Realised that love could block your vision from the reality.
3 Years Ago
I moved to England, studying in Uni. I had the most important experients about how to survive. It was really great, but also a hard times. Spending uncounted money and tears for trying to made my love relationship works. And it didn't work at all!!
A Year Ago
I was in Melbourne, doing my Business of Advertising. Met an amazing guy who become my soulmate now, met so many new friends and my life was so colourful since that.
This Year
I had my first graduation, studying Multimedia. Had the best times of my life with my boyfriend. Also I had to say goodbye to Australia and left a half of my heart there with my boyfriend. Back to Indonesia and struggled to find a job.
Yesterday
Stayed home, doing my portfolio. At nite, stayed over in my friend's house. Got piss, had a good time.
Today
Had a little bit hangover and back home.
Tomorrow
I want to spend time with my niece. That's all, no more plan yet.
Next year
I will working as Creative Director in a big advertising agency, somewhere in Jakarta. Meet my boyfriend..(hope so) and start building my own future.
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me at 1:52 PM
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