| Friday, August 29, 2003 |
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Rabu malem kmaren, aku ikutan pengen liat mars. Lagi nonton tipi dirumah, trus Fajar ngajakin liat mars, ya udah ngikut deh. Katanya bisa ngeliat dibelakang McD, hehhehehe...kita berdua kayak orang gila nongkrongin parkiran McD sambil celingukan liat langit. Karena langitnya lagi mendung,jadi gak keliatan apa2, akhirnya kita pindah posisi kerumah Erick. Ternyata bener, bisa keliatan mars. Gak seberapa jelas sih,meski bener2 mantengin banget baru keliatan. Erick sibuk foto2 tu planet ama Fajar, aku jadi tim penggembira aja,hihihi. Kamis pagi berangkat kuliah ama Duncan, back to our routine day again. Semalem juga ama Duncan lagi, ketawa2 liat acara baru ditipi. Malemnya mesti rada2 berantem ama Kitty, si kucing, buat memperebutkan Naughty,hahhahaha. Anjirr...kucing ternyata bisa cemburu ya. Dia asli cemburu gitu ama aku, tiap kali aku dideket Duncan, dia langsung berusaha ditengah2 kita,hahahhaha. Lucu banget deh,liat mukanya yg BT gitu ke aku,hahahha.
Pagi ini berangkat kuliah sendiri, soalnya Duncan mesti berangkat lebih pagian, dan aku males berangkat lebih pagi dari biasanya. Dikelas ketawa2 mulu ama Danny, abis kelasnya yg nyantei gitu. Abis kuliah, beli chocolate and mocha cake buat party di rumah ex houseparent-ku ntar malem. Mo beli wine benernya, tapi aku pikir pasti persediaan wine udah cukup banyak dirumah Dad, jadi beli cake aja..pasti mereka gak prepare apa2 buat desert-nya. Dana sih katanya mo ikut ntar malem, tapi gak tau lagi deh, anak satu itu mulai kumat penyakit lamanya, moody. Jadi males klo dia mulai kayak gitu. Ya udah, mo setrika baju dulu deh buat ntar malem. Ta..ta.. |
me at 11:18 AM
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| Wednesday, August 27, 2003 |
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 Duh,senengnya hari ini. Meski semalem sempet marah banget, gara2 ada yg boong ama aku, tapi hari ini seneng banget. Jam 11 siang kebangun gara2 hpku bunyi, pas diangkat langsung teriak kegirangan. Naughty is home!! Langsung bangun, mandi, bikin coffee, dandan, trus cabut ke rumah dia. Jam 1 ada kelas soalnya, makanya gak bisa lama ketemuannya, cuman sekitar 1 jam. Dia nelpon2 mulu selama aku nunggu tram kerumahnya. Pas udah nyampe depan rumahnya, aku telpon minta bukain pintu. Gak lama dia keluar trus lari menyambutku, jadi keinget film india deh,hahhahaha. Gak ada yg berubah dari dia, masih sama kayak yg dulu . Ternyata Kitty, kucingnya juga ikutan keluar pas aku dateng. Dia kasi aku boneka teddy bear lengkap ama jumper merah yg ada tulisan 'Canada' ama satu slop ciggy pesenanku,hehehhe. Cerita2 dan ketawa2 sejaman trus aku cabut soalnya mesti kuliah, itu juga udah telat benernya, tapi cuek aja.
Dikelas, aku tadi ngumpulin assignment print adku yang benernya mesti dikumpulin Jumat kemaren, tapi karena aku berhalangan hadir *nyengir* makanya baru bisa dikumpulin hari ini. Chris, sang dosen langsung muji hasil kerjaanku. Senengnya nambah lagi deh,hehhehehe. Sekarang udah dirumah, abis belanja makanan rumah sepulang kuliah tadi. Sialan, celengan menipis lagi...ntar mo nelpon rumah minta bantuan dana dari Papa,hihihi. Naughty pasti masih tidur sekarang, dia pasti kecapekan dan kena jetlag lagi, kebayang sendiri khan gimana rasanya. Gak tau kita ketemuan lagi gak malem ini, aku biarin dia istirahat dulu aja, still plenty of time to be together,right. Udah ah...laper nih. Gini enaknya klo lagi bahagia, jadi lupa makan...lumayan melancarkan program diet asalku.
Welcome back,Duncan  |
me at 2:09 PM
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| Monday, August 25, 2003 |
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 Hari ini capek banget deh. Udah mulai magangnya, capek bukan berarti disuruh kerja macem2, tapi aku tuh cuman disuruh duduk doang disana. BT banget, kayak dipenjara gitu rasanya. Aku sempet nelpon2 client juga sih, cuman gak banyak, padahal aku maunya yg rada2 agresif gitu,biar cepet dapet iklannya. Tapi kayaknya mereka yg adem ayem gitu, aku jadi ilfil deh. Ya udah...ikutan adem ayem juga, sampe ngantuk mulu seharian.
Gak kerasa, waktu jalannya cepet banget. Duncan balik rabu ini...yeaaa!!! Ya udah deh, capek nih..semalem juga kurang tidur gara2 ketawa2 ama Onie dan Dana ampe jam 4 pagi. Last song of today is Winter by Tori Amos. I'm off now...ta..ta
He says when you gonna make up your mind
When you gonna love you as much as I do
When you gonna make up your mind
Cause things are gonna CHANGE so fast
All the white horses are still in bed
I tell you that I'll always want you near
You say that things change my dear |
me at 8:04 PM
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| Friday, August 22, 2003 |
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Siang tadi, aku shopping dan nonton 'Tears of the Sun', another great war movie. Tentang perang di Africa dan banyak banget scenes yg bener2 nyentuh perasaanku. Terutama pas, musuhnya nyerang satu desa dan bunuh semua warganya. Disitu diliatin gimana wanita2 Africa yg nangis dan melolong karena disiksa dan diperkosa. Dan ada satu adegan dimana satu wanita lagi diperkosa rame2, trus ditolongin ama Bruce Willis and the gank. Wanita itu gak cuman diperkosa dan disiksa, tapi juga satu organ tubuhnya dipotong biar gak bisa nyusuin bayinya lagi. Aku sampe gak kedip ngeliatnya dan tau2 pandanganku kabur soalnya kacamataku udah penuh airmata. Jadi sedih deh, knapa sih wanita..kaumku selalu dijadiin korban. Knapa masih juga ada bajingan2 didunia ini yang tega nyakitin kita. Meski itu cuman difilm, tapi aku yakin..dalam perang, wanita selalu deh dijadiin bulan-bulanan kayak gitu. Anyway, it was a good movie, really made me realise how lucky I am to be women and can enjoying my life, enjoying be free.
Senin udah mulai magang nih, makanya tadi cari kostum. Baru nyadar,klo selama ini jarang banget beli celana item yg bukan dari bahan jeans. Udah dapet sih tadi, lumayan terjangkau harganya dan yg pasti gak kayak emak2 mo pengajian,hehehhe. Last song of today is That I Would Be Good by Alanis. Have a great weekend, Everybody.
that I would be loved even when I numb myself
that I would be good even when I am overwhelmed
that I would be loved even when I was fuming
that I would be good even if I was clingy
that I would be good even if I lost sanity
that I would be good
whether with or without you
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me at 8:58 PM
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| Thursday, August 21, 2003 |
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 My yoga class today was really good. We learnt few new things about to control the breath. My teacher said, how you control your breath will influence to how you control your emotion. And in the meditation session, I was feeling amused. I closed my eyes, following how to control my breath, visualised a big black board in front of me. That time, I was visualised drawing a big circle and wrote my name on it. And you know who's name came up on the board, not mine but funetta. Then, I took a big breath, and erased that name and wrote my name again. I was trying many time because that name kept coming back. Then, finally..I can saw my name inside the circle. But I still can see the shadow of that name under my name. After we opened our eyes, my teacher said, "Life is about take in and let go, that's the rule. You take whatever you can get, hold it until the time's up and you have to let go whatever you can't have. Maybe you still could see it, but from a far. It's not gone, it's just go wherever it belong to." And on the way to back home, that words still stick on my head. Last song of today is Angel by Amanda Perez. I'll let go what I can have in my life, but I won't forget it.
God send me an angel from the heaven's above
Send me an angel to heal my broken heart from being in love
Cause all I do is cry
God send me an angel to wipe the tears from my eyes |
me at 8:33 PM
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| Wednesday, August 20, 2003 |
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Cuman karena kasihan...lalu tumbuh cinta
Cuman karena kebiasaan...lalu tumbuh cinta
Cuman karena uang...lalu tumbuh cinta
Cuman karena sex...lalu tumbuh cinta
Cuman karena utang...lalu tumbuh cinta
Cuman karena orang tua...lalu tumbuh cinta
Cuman karena kesepian...lalu tumbuh cinta
Cuman karena kebutuhan...lalu tumbuh cinta
Cuman karena kemewahan...lalu tumbuh cinta
See, there are too many reasons to be in love. Too many excuses to find love. But, I love you because of you, because you make me realise that life is about hold on and move on. If there's a happiness, we have to hold on it but when there's a sadness, we have to keep move on. But just remember, nothing is last. Nothing is forever. Nite..nite.. |
me at 8:54 PM
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| New layout...hehhehehe, bosen ama yg lama, pengen ganti ama yg lebih simple. Ngerjain semaleman, dan baru bisa dilaunching hari ini. What do you think,Guys? |
me at 2:39 PM
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| Monday, August 18, 2003 |
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Hari ini capek banget. Kuliah pagi, trus ama Jan, survisor working placementku udah bikinin appoitnment interview di satu majalah buat Indonesian community buat aku jam 2 siang. Jam 11 masih dikampus, langsung buru2 balik kerumah buat ganti baju dan nyiapin semuanya. Klo naek train gak bakal bisa nyampe sana on time, untungnya pas nelpon Fajar minta tolong anterin kesana, dianya bisa. Pyuh...lega banget. Thanks ya,Jar...loe baek deh,hehhehe. Nyampe rumah jam 12an, langsung nyamber clana item 2 ama atasannya 3 biji buat di setrika. Jam 1 cabut dari rumah, dan nyampe sana pas banget jam 2. Asli nervous juga. And I got the job...yeaaaa!! Lega banget, meski dapet di bagian marketing bukan advertising, tapi aku terima aja deh. Abis waktunya udah mepet banget dan daripada gak dapet sama sekali. Kali aja dibolehin ikut ngutak-utik layout majalahnya khan lumayan bisa nambah pengalaman.
Abis gitu nemenin Fajar ngambil kiriman paket di DHL. Jam setengah 6 nyampe rumah, laper banget seharian gak makan apa2. Bikin korean noddle, trus jam 6 cabut lagi, mesti nyuci baju soalnya. Jam 8 udah nyampe rumah lagi, baru bisa deh nyantei sambil ngurut2 kaki yg pegel banget rasanya. Udah ngantuk nih, mo bobo dulu deh, besok mesti bangun pagi lagi. Duncan ngapain ya, udah beberapa hari ini dia gak online dan ngirim email, moga2 dia baek2 aja disana. Last song of today is Breathe by Blu Cantrell feat Sean Paul. I'm off now...cya
You say you love, say you love me
But you’re never there for me
You’ll be cryin’, slowly dyin’
When I decide to leave
All we do is make up
Then break up
Why don’t we wake up
And see
When love hurts
It won’t work
Maybe we need some time alone
We need to let it breathe |
me at 8:51 PM
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| Sunday, August 17, 2003 |
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HAPPY INDEPENDENT DAY, INDONESIA 
Eventhough I'm not in Indonesia at the moment, and I also not a really good citizen, but all of my heart is in you. I don't care with the bomb, terorrist, and everything else that want to destroy you...you are still my home sweet home. Never give up, Indonesia...never stop trying, I know you can make it.
MERDEKAA!!! *sambil hormat diudara, soalnya dirumah emang gak masang bendera merah-putih* |
me at 10:07 AM
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| Saturday, August 16, 2003 |
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Kemaren malem BT banget rasanya. Pengen pergi, pengen keluar rumah, tapi pas nelpon orang2..mereka yg pada nyebelin gitu...jadinya aku milih dirumah aja,menelan keBTanku. Bobby? Hmmm..mahluk paling nyebelin dan bikin pusing, tapi sok cakep itu. Dia nelpon sih, cuman kita yg saling nyolot gitu ngomongnya, hihihihi. Mana dirumah sendiri lagi semaleman. Prima gak tau kmana, Fajar cabut dan Duncan gak online juga..lengkap deh kegaringanku. Dan tau2 inget ama teori yoga classku, teori bernafas yg bisa bikin kita ngerasa lebih rileks dan tenang. Abis dipraktekin ternyata emang ngerasa lebih berkurang BTnya, trus jadi ngantuk dan tewaslah diatas kasur nyamanku. That was my friday night.
Malem ini, benernya mo nonton Tusuk Jelangkung, tapi berhubung Prima gak nongol dan nelpon aku juga, akhirnya aku mutusin stay dirumah,lagi. Fajar barusan cabut..dan Prima belum nunjukin batang udelnya ampe sekarang juga. Anyway, Sam nelpon, ngajakin ketemuan malem ini tapi belum tau pasti jam brapa. Ya klo jadi sih, abis paling males klo disuruh nunggu. Makanya, klo dia nelpon lagi ya berangkat, klo gak ya tidur dirumah. Ntar rada maleman, mo nelpon mbak Ly, dia pasti juga lagi BT sendirian dikamar barunya di Jkt. Yup..dia lagi di Jkt buat 2 bulan, demi masa depan katanya,hahahahhaa.
Dari kemaren Duncan gak online,kmana ya dia? Dia crita sih mo ke Vegas tapi gak tau apa weekend ini apa kapan. Moga2 aja dia gak lagi sakit disana. Sejak dia pergi, kita jadi lebih sering ngobrol dari heart to heart gitu lewat MSN. Ternyata slama ini kita tuh yg kurang banyak saling curhatnya. Slama ini kita yg kebanyakan becanda dan ngomong2in yang gak perlu. Baru pas dia pergi, salah satu komunikasi kita lewat chatting di MSN. Dia nelpon juga sih, cuman gak pernah lama. Aku tau dia emang tipe cowok yg gak suka ngobrol berjam2 di telpon, jadi meski kadang rada kecewa juga aku berusaha untuk ngerti kekurangannya dia yg satu itu. Mo nelpon mbak Ly dulu ah, pengen ketawa2 ama dia. Saturday night is here...my man is there...damn!!
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me at 4:17 PM
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| Friday, August 15, 2003 |
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cinta...cobalah untuk mengerti
aku tidak bisa melupakanmu
pelukannya tak mampu mengusir bayangmu
ciumannya tak kuasa menghapus senyummu
rayuannya tak jua menepis kenanganmu
tapi cinta...mengertilah
aku harus terus melangkah kedepan
aku takut berjalan sendiri
ingatlah aku,kenanglah aku
abadilah cerita kita
---lagi BT,setengah tiang pula,dan merindukan seseorang yg senyumnya gak pernah luntur didalam sini--- |
me at 7:29 PM
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| Wednesday, August 13, 2003 |
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 Hey...I feel much much better today. So glad, finally I can smile again. I didn't go to school yet, hope tomorrow I'm much stronger to walk and run to catch the train again,hehehehhe. Today I was chatting with Mya,hehhehehe...loves the goss. Cepet sembuh ya,My. Duncan called me lastnight, then I can sleep well afterward. I'm little bit worried with my sister,mbak Ly..hope she can do all the task well. You can do it,Sis.
I miss a lot of things lately. I miss Duncan, my sister,my nephew and niece, my friends, my car, my room, my house, my piano and guitar. I miss Surabaya. Miss the hot and crowded streets there. I'll be back home soon, and then I'm pretty sure I will miss all I have in here. Nobody perfect,right? Anyway, 2 more weekends to go then Duncan will beside me again, yiiippiii!! |
me at 2:06 PM
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| Monday, August 11, 2003 |
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 My weekend made me sick. I'm still sick now. Dizzy, stomache burn, cough and runny nose. But the worst is my stomach. Damn, I never been this sick since for long time. Today, I skipped my class cause I even can't stand for more than 10 minutes. So, I just stayed home and had a long nap, from 4 pm to 7 pm. After had my afternoon coffee, I took shower, I thought I'll be better afterwards. But, still I feel terrible, especially my stomach. I wish Duncan is here, he'll make me feel little bit better,I guess.
Eh,aku dapet email dari funetta barusan. Gak ada yg berubah, dia masih tetep yang terbaik buat aku. Benernya seneng banget dapet email dia, tapi karena perutku sakit...rasa senengku kalah ama rasa sakitnya deh. Udah ah...gak kuat duduk lama2,mo tiduran lagi. Kayaknya aku kualat nih..makanya sakit perut. Besok mo ke dokter, setelah mikir2 lama dan gak kuat ama badanku yg jadi lemes kayak anak cacingan gini. Hope nothing wrong with me, hope I'll be okay.
Last song of today is Senandung Lirih by Iwan Fals.
Smoga kau temukan apa yang kau cari
Yang tak kau dapatkan..dari aku
Helai udara disekitarku
Senandung lirih namamu
Kemanapun kau akan melangkah
Aku yang slalu mengenangmu..
--senandung lirih buat funetta-- |
me at 1:41 PM
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| Sunday, August 10, 2003 |
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Akhir2 ini aku ngerasa klo emosiku lagi gak seberapa balance deh. Suka sensi dan unsecure gitu. Udah 2 hari ini aku beda pendapat mulu ama Naughty. Penyebabnya macem2 dan kadang rada gak masuk akal juga sih, akunya aja yg cari2,hehehhe. Gak tau knapa, mungkin atiku lagi bikin demo protes anti lonely didalem sana. Saat aku udah mulai terbiasa ngabisin waktu dan hariku ama dia, trus dia mesti pergi liburan yang padahal cuman 3 minggu tapi rasanya lama banget. Rasanya tekanan dan kewajiban2 yang mesti aku pikul makin berat aja dipundakku. Soal practical placement, bentar lagi mesti balik ke Indo for good, bakal pisahan ama Naughty, keilangan kebebasan2 yang aku punya disini, dan masih banyak lagi pikiran2 ruwet laennya. Dan setiap kli aku berantem ama Naughty, aku selalu ngerasa sakit2 sendiri. Gak seharusnya aku terlalu nuntut dia buat ngikuti jalan pikiranku terus. Gak seharusnya aku terlalu sensi ama kebiasaan2 dia. Gak seharusnya aku membiarkan semuanya ini terus menghantui benakku. Makanya semalem, aku pergi ama Sam dan temen2nya. Cowok satu itu makin cute aja deh, apalagi klo dia mulai bertindak bodoh. Dan semalem, ditengah2 hangoverku..aku menyadari satu hal. Enjoy it while it lasts. Gak ada gunanya mikir jauh2, apa yg ada saat inilah yg perlu aku syukuri dan nikmati. Klo sekarang aku nerima Naughty dengan semua kelebihan dan kekurangannya, ya itulah yang harus aku syukuri keberadaannya. At least, I have someone to be my shoulder to cry on now. Klo aku sekarang aku udah keabisan airmata dan kata2 buat Funetta, at least aku harus mensyukuri apa yg Tuhan pernah beri lewat dia. Aku jadi ngerti artinya sacrifice dan cinta gak mesti harus memiliki. Aku jadi nyadar betapa besar arti Naughty selama ini.Dia udah sabar dan perhatian banget ama aku, so knapa aku masih nuntut dia lebih. Idup itu khan intinya ada didiri kita sendiri, gimana kita jalani dan bangkit dari kegagalan. And right now, I have the best time of my life, so I have to enjoy...while it lasts.
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me at 9:25 AM
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| Saturday, August 09, 2003 |
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I was chatting with Naughty today, talking about a lot of stuff. Then the topic goes to the wedding thing. Both of us agree that we're not going to put pressure on each other. If you like it, just do it...but if not, so don't. He gave me a good definition of marriage and it was really touching words.
"I think marriage is a very special thing for two people who are very special for each other,it shouldn't be rushed into."
Wedding is not on my to do list now, but one day..I will. If I already find 'the one' for me. Like Astree said to me last night, " You don't know it, you just feel it." And I was wondering, who's going to be my 'one' and when I'm going to find it? Next month, next year, or next century? Scary things to imagine. Have a nice weekend,Everybody.. |
me at 12:30 PM
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| Friday, August 08, 2003 |
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I miss you when something really good happens
Because you're the one I want to share it with
I miss you when something troubling me
Because you're the one who understands me so well
I miss you when I laugh and cry
Because I know that you are the one that makes my laughter grow and my tears disappear
I miss you all the time
But I miss you the most when I lay awake at night and think of all the wonderful times that we spent with each other
For those some of the best and most memorable times of my life
Naughty,sorry if I put a doubt on you tonight. You know me, I just being silly. Miss ya |
me at 10:36 PM
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| Thursday, August 07, 2003 |
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I'll give you my hand if you promise me to hold it
I'll give you my smile if you promise me to keep it
I'll give you my heart if you promise me not to break it
I'll give you my love if you promise me to stay
And I want you to know ...
If I have to go, I'll go
If I have to say goodbye, I'll say it
If I have to leave you, I'll do it
But, I willl always love you..
I miss my Naughty..a lot |
me at 8:28 PM
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| Wednesday, August 06, 2003 |
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MY DEEPEST SYMPATHY FOR ANOTHER BOMBING IN MY COUNTRY. WHEN IT'S GOING TO BE OVER, OUR TEARS STILL NOT DRY YET 
Aku lagi dirumah Bobby semalem, lagi discuss my practical placement. Tau2 Qew,temen serumahnya dia nanyain soal bom. Aku dengan begonya jawab, "Bomb? What bomb?"
Bobby jelasin klo tadi sore ada bomb di hotel Marriot Jakarta. Mukaku langsung merah-ijo gitu dengernya saking kagetnya. How can I didn't know that? Langsung nelpon Prima buat konfirmasi, ternyata Prima bilang klo dia juga udah tau soal itu. Yaelah, kayaknya aku satu2nya orang Indo di kota ini yang baru denger deh. Jadi sedih, mana yg meninggal makin bertambah aja. Jadi kepikiran ama orang2 yang aku kenal yang ada di Jakarta. I felt bad afterwards,I'm too busy with my own things and ignored everything else around me. Aku balik jam 12 malem, masih dengan pikiran nyadar betapa cueknya aku selama ini.
Pagi ini pas bangun, langsung buka Jawapos online dan baca beritanya  Damn, I'm not a good citizen. Tau2 Duncan online, trus kita chatting deh. Dia nanyain soal bom juga dan bilang klo dia kuatir ada apa2 ama aku klo balik ntar. Dia pengen aku tetep disini ama dia. What a sweet request but I still have to back home as soon as I finish this course. I'll be okay and even though something bad will happen to me, I know I always have you to wipe my tears. |
me at 12:05 PM
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| Tuesday, August 05, 2003 |
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Namamu slalu kubisiki dalam tidurku
Dalam mimpiku setiap malam..hangat tubuhmu melekat dikulitku
Beribu peluk beribu cium kita lalui
Tapi kau kabur dengaa duda anak tiga pilihan ibumu
Hatiku hancur berserakan,berhamburan kaya jeroannya binatang
Ya sudah,kumenangis seadanya,sekuat tenaga
Ya sudahlah..
Lirik lagunya Iwan Fals yg judulnya Ancur ini kocak juga klo didengerin. Ditinggal kawin? Hahhaha, emang enak?! Kayaknya lucu ya,padahal klo kita bener2 ngalamin hal itu, pasti ditanggung ancur,seancur2nya deh. Pernah gak bayangin, orang yg kita sayangi dan cintai mesti bersanding ama orang laen di pelaminan, ngambil tempat yg sebenarnya punya kita. Pernah gak mikirin, kayak apa sih rasanya mesti nerima kenyataan itu dengan lapang dada meski kita tau dada kita gak selapang itu nyatanya. Pernah terlintas gak, gimana kita mencoba untuk tersenyum dan nyembuhin luka yg bekasnya gak akan pernah hilang. Gimana rasanya harus melalui satu hari dimana orang yg kita cintai lagi ngucapin ijab kabul.
Aku kasi tau ya gimana rasanya. Satu, sakiiittt banget. Dua, paaiiiittt banget. Tiga, anccuuurr banget. Butuh waktu lama buat bisa nerima kenyataan itu. Butuh bergalon2 airmata buat menghanyutkan luka itu. Butuh ribuan nasehat dan dorongan buat ngadepin semua itu. Gak gampang, tapi juga gak mustahil buat dilakuin. Pokoknya inget satu hal, klo orang itu udah mutusin untuk ninggalin kita dan milih kawin ama orang laen, berarti kita udah kalah. Kekuatan cinta kita gak kuat untuk menahan dia biar gak pergi. Tapi bukan selalu berarti dia gak cinta ama kita, mungkin ada hal2 laen yang kita gak bisa lawan kekuatannya. Hal2 laen yang jauh lebih penting daripada kebersamaan kita ama orang itu. Relain aja dia pergi, lepasin aja apa yang gak semestinya milik kita.
At the end of the day, everything that make you cry will make you laugh. Everything that hurt you will make you stronger. Let it go..and let it pass by. Good night..everybody. |
me at 10:28 PM
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| Monday, August 04, 2003 |
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This Practical Placement start killing me slowly but sure. Anybody wanna help me? Just dig a big hole to bury me now!!  |
me at 9:55 PM
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In the arms of someone you love, the world seems so safe, cause you know that you don't have to be alone. |
me at 11:51 AM
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| Sunday, August 03, 2003 |
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I miss my Naughty 
Time seems walk so slowly and I just wanna pass this month as soon as I could. I hate being lonely. I'm going to bed now, nite...nite... |
me at 9:06 PM
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 Kemaren beli iket rambut yg cute banget. Meski benernya aku gak terlalu suka ngiket rambutku, tapi pas liat kuncir yg satu ini langsung jatuh cinta deh. Aku beli dua, yg satu dari bahan yg sama, cuman manik2nya lebih gede dan bulet2, soal warna tetep biru dong !! Duh,weekend udah abis, besok mesti bangun pagi dan kuliah lagi. Pilek belum juga sembuh, tapi udah mendingan sih. Aku emang gak minum obat apa2, abisnya klo minum obat jadi ngantuk mulu kerjaannya. Jadi, obat yg paling manjur itu, biarkan waktu yang menyembuhkannya,hahahhaha. Dasar males!!
Semalem mimpi Duncan. Tau2 dia nongol di pintu rumahku. Wah,kaget banget. Eh..tau2 kebangun gara2 HP bunyi,damn!! Kemaren aku beli mascara baru, merk Revlon. Ini innovasi baru katanya. Wah, promosi si mbak sales masuk banget ke aku yg emang asli maniak mascara ini. Semalem udah dicobain sih, not bad meski aku lebih prefer ke merk Maybelline ama Lancome. Aku emang gila make-up, sejak diajarin dandan ama my aunty beberapa taun yg lalu. Lipstick ama eyeshadowku udah banyak banget, tapi hasrat buat beli gak juga padam ampe sekarang,hehehhe. Si Duncan sering bilang, aku gak perlu dandan karena aku cakep seperti apa adanya. Cieee...gombal banget. Thanks..Naughty,you always make me feel special. Kemaren juga beli alas plastik yg cute buat laptopku. Beli satu gratis satu, ya udah..yg satu aku kasiin Prima buat laptopnya. Udah ah...mo gangguin Prima dulu,daag |
me at 10:22 AM
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| Saturday, August 02, 2003 |
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I just found this image, really cute,hah? hahhhaha. Remind me of Sinchan, the funny little kid with adult brain.
Have a nice weekend...Everybody |
me at 10:18 AM
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| Friday, August 01, 2003 |
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I went shopping today in Chaddy. Just so boring at home, so I put my jeans on and threw my hommy costumes, then catch the tram. Actually, I just want to buy something for Sachi's birthday gift, but then I ended up bought another things aswell. A pair of jeans, few tops, few blank mini disc and I got very cute a toe ring. Gee...so cute, there's a little butterfly in it and it's blue. I'm still got my sore throat and runny nose, but I don't really care about it, no time to be a spoilt girl now. Hey..I got an email from Duncan today. He said he was stuck in LA cause he missed his flight to Canada. I'm glad he can get along with his mum during the flight..maybe it's not going to be long,hehehhe. I bought rendang for take away, and you know what..it's kind a spit out in my new top, damn!! The stain is still there even though I washed it when I got home. I'll bring it to the dry cleaner monday. I was chatting with Craig, he asked to go out tomorrow night with his housemate, Barbara. First I said ok, but now I think I change my mind. Don't know why. Hope tomorrow I can find a good excuse for him, don't wanna make him think that I broke my promise again. Weekend is so lonely without Duncan. Then Jhon just called me few minutes before and I pretend that I was sleeping,hahhaha. Like the old story, he want to meet me tonight,now. Hmmm...I don't wanna go out now. I just wanna sleep with peace in my warm room.
Today, I also got a package from Ian. It was 3 CD of Iwan Fals, Jewel and the heart(mix of old songs) and a pink scarf. Pink? Yeah..pink,hahahha. Anyway,thanks Ian. I'm off now, so sleepy. Wanna listen to the last song of today, Are You Happy Now by Michelle Branch...Duncan's favourite song.
You took all there was to take,
And left me with an empty plate
And you don’t care about it, yeah.
And I am givin' up this game
I’m leaving you with all the blame cause I don’t care
Could you look me in the eye?
And tell me that you’re happy now, oohh oohhh
Would you tell it to my face or have I been erased,
Are you happy now?
Are you happy now?
Are you happy now?
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me at 9:25 PM
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY,SACHI
May you find all the happiness that you've been looking for.
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me at 9:27 AM
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