| Monday, September 29, 2003 |
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w.a.i.t.i.n.gPernah gak ngerasain yg namanya nunggu sesuatu yang gak jelas dan gak pasti? Meski kita benernya udah tau klo yang kita tunggu itu sifatnya mustahil banget untuk kita dapetin, tapi dari dalam lubuk hati yg terdalam..kayak ada yg bisikin, 'tunggu aja, mungkin besok ada perubahan.' Bisikan2 gak jelas itu tetap aja menghantui perasaan kita untuk terus menunggu dan menunggu. Kira2 beberapa bulan yg lalu, aku ngalamin itu dilemma. Antara menunggu dan tetep jalan tanpa berharap apa2 lagi. Setelah ngabisin beratus2 hari, akhirnya aku mutusin untuk tetep jalanin hidupku tanpa mengharap bakal dapetin apa yang selama ini aku tunggu dan nanti2kan itu. Tapi jujur aja, setelah akhirnya aku berhasil berjalan tanpa nengok ke belakang, tetep aja ada beberapa malam aku habiskan dengan membayangkan gimana ya rasanya klo 'impian' itu bener2 bisa aku dapetin. Namanya juga manusia, gak ada perfect2nya. Klo gak bisa dapetin yg diinginkan, meski udah dapet yang laennya, tetep aja berandai2 klo bisa dapetin keinginan yg pertama itu. Nah..lo,jadi binun sendiri, ribet ama bahasanya,hehhehehe.
Beberapa hari yang lalu, aku dapet satu message di voicemail hpku. Isinya cuman lagu yg dimainin pake piano doang. Pertama aku mikirnya pasti kerjaan si Naughty,soalnya sehari sebelumnya aku kasi denger pas aku lagi maen piano dan aku rekam di hp. Ternyata pas ditanyain,dianya malah geleng2 sambil nyetir mobil dengan cueknya. Siapa dong? Kurang kerjaan banget naro2 lagu gituan di hp orang, mana lama lagi masa puternya. Jadi mikir, apa mungkin si 'impian lama' ya yang naro. Ah,gak mungkin. Dia gak seiseng itu, lagian dia khan sibuk,mana sempet nelpon jauh2 cuman buat gituan doang. Tau ah..lupain aja. Ini cuman sepotong masa lalu yang masih melekat di sini, yang manis dan pahitnya masih terasa betul diingatanku. That's the way love goes...up and down like a bloody yo-yo. Good night,Guys. |
me at 6:52 PM
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 Duh, pusing deh. Susah amat sih nyari course yg cuman 6 bulan. Jurusan cocok, tempat gak cocok. Jurusan dan tempat cocok, harga gak cocok. Jurusan, tempat dan harga cocok, waktunya gak cocok. Gimana dong, mana mesti mutusin secepat mungkin, paling gak akhir bulan October mesti jelas jadi apa gaknya kuliah lagi disini. Klo minta waktu tambahan buat disini lebih dari 6 bulan ke Papa juga kayaknya gak mungkin, abis cuman dibolehin 6 bulan doang. Mmmm...tau deh. Duncan juga udah bantuin nyari2, tapi emang gak segampang itu kenyataannya. Hari ini kerja, ngacir cepet kayak biasa. BT, gak ngapa2in cuman bantu sana-sini doang. Ya udah, cabut aja, gak ngaruh ini. Mesti siap2 bentar lagi, mo kelas yoga jam 6. Ya udahlah, pusing nih kepala. |
me at 2:15 PM
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| Friday, September 26, 2003 |
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..pasang poster..Hari ini dapet tugas nempel2in poster majalah tempat aku magang. Sialan, tempatnya yg nun jauh disana. Mana seharian yg ujan dan dingin gitu, bikin tambah males aja keluar rumah. Duncan dateng jam setengah 1 siang, biasa setor muka soalnya aku omel2in mulu dari kemaren,hihihihi....sukurin. Ya udah, dia mo nganterin pasang poster deh..yeaa!! Dijalan ketawa dan ledek2an mulu, udah lama gak kayak gitu. Masang di 3 tempat yg jarak satu ama yg laen jauh2an gitu, abis gitu ganti nemenin dia ke dokter. Heran deh, dokter disini kayaknya pada nyontek pas jaman kuliah dulu, abis obatnya gak ada yg manjur. Di Indo, klo gak manjur ama obat dari dokter, khan masih ada obat tradisional ato bawa ke dukun aja klo udah desperate banget,hihihihi. Anyway, balik ke cerita pasang poster, aku sempet makan pempek juga tadi, yeeaaa!! Seneng deh, abis udah lama banget pengen makan pempek. Gak seenak pempek yg ada di Galaxy mall sby sih, tapi mayan deh daripada gak sama sekali. Duncan gak mau, katanya bau. Bego ah,makanan enak dikatain bau. Pulangnya beli ayam panggang, rendang, lumpia ama risoles buat dirumah. Maruk abis deh, maklum..udah lama gak makan makanan nusantara,hehhehehe.
Barusan nyampe rumah, Duncan langsung balik kerumahnya, ngantuk berat katanya. Yaelah...sampe segitunya klo ngantuk. Barusan Sammy nelpon ngajakin jalan ntar malem. Hmmm...akhirnya bilang iya, abis daripada bt dirumah weekend2 gini. Masih ujan dan dingin, tapi aku udah gak kedinginan soalnya heater rumah nyala, sambil ngupi dan nyalain ciggy. Perfect!! |
me at 3:26 PM
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| Thursday, September 25, 2003 |
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..BORING..Gak tau knapa, akhir2 ini aku ngerasa bosen ama kehidupanku. Kayaknya aku jadi orang yg membosankan banget, gak seasik dulu,hehehhe *pd banget ngatain diri sendiri asik*. Rabu kmaren dateng ke open day-nya RMIT ama Dana. Iseng aja nyari info buat kuliah yg mo aku ambil taun depan. Gak dapet info yg aku mau, malah terbengong2 ama gedung RMIT yg asli keren dan artistik banget itu. Belum nentuin kampus mana yg bisa aku apply, yg pasti jurusannya klo gak multimedia ya applied design. I need those points to help me get what I want in the future. Beda2 pendapat ama Duncan udah terlewati, kita baek2 aja sekarang. Gak tau knapa dia ngerasa gak fit akhir2 ini, bawaannya capek mulu. Kayak malem ini, dia jemput aku abis kelas yoga, ke McD bentar trus balik kerumah. Kita emang saben Rabu dan Kamis wajib nonton TV bareng2,soalnya ada acara TV kesukaan kita berdua. Namanya CNNNN, plesetannya CNN, kocak abis deh. Kita pasti yg ketawa kenceng2 setiap nonton acara itu. Tapi malem ini, dia ngerasa capek banget, makanya pulang sebelum acara itu mulai. Ya udah, aku nonton sendiri deh. Dan tau gak, kok malem ini gak seberapa lucu ya, buktinya aku gak ngakak sama sekali, cuman senyum dikit trus manyun lagi. Mungkin bukan acaranya yg bikin kita ketawa, tapi kebersamaan yg bikin kita ngerasa rilek dan bisa ketawa. Gak tau deh. I miss laughing with you,Naughty, get well soon.
Besok kerja lagi, pasti kaki sakit lagi deh. Tau ah, mo pake sepatu kets aja kali ya besok. Semalem nelpon mama ama mbak Ly lama. Ketawa2, dengerin cerita tentang Billa yg sekarang udah gede dan tambah genit. Rambutnya panjang,keriting dan mukanya makin kayak mukaku jaman kecil dulu. Duh, jadi pengen ketemu dia deh. Aku kangen rumah kali ya, makanya akhir2 ini uring2an mulu. Udah 8 bulan ninggalin rumah, banyak perubahan dan perkembangan yg aku cuman tau dari telpon dan foto aja. Aku pulang kok December ini, bentar lagi khan. Udah mo puasa euy, persiapan mental gak juga nambah dari taun2 kemaren. Biasa aja, nyantei dan jalani aja. Puasa disini emang jauh lebih berat daripada di Indo. Godaannya geedddee banget!!! Bau rokok, coffee, ato bau makanan kuat banget disini, terutama klo dikampus ato di jalan. Yg pasti taun ini gak puasa sendiri, bakal saur ama Fajar. At least something change this time,right. Dari jauh2 hari udah jelasin tentang puasa ke Duncan, dan gak nyangka dia yg support abis gitu. See, there is a change this year. Oia,sore ini adalah kelas yogaku yg terakhir. Minggu depan udah gak di begginer lagi, yeaa!! Weekend udah bentar lagi, asik!! Soalnya klo weekend, aku bisa ngabisin waktu ama Duncan lebih lama daripada week day. Gak ada kerja dan kuliah, jadi bisa ama dia terus. Bisa ketawa2 lagi dan bisa ledek2an lagi. Ya udah deh,capek nih...mo rebahan. Besok bangun pagi dan kerja lagi. Have a great dream,Everybody...
eventhough you only lives in the corner of me, but i miss you heaps. wish you here with me now. |
me at 7:26 PM
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 Hari ini gak pergi kemana2, dirumah terus seharian. Benernya Dana ngajakin shopping ke Richmond, tapi dia baru nelpon jam 2an, udah basi banget khan. Paling males klo pergi udah kesiangan gitu, mana sore ini khan aku kelas Yoga jam 6. Ya udah, abis mandi trus bersih2 rumah. Hehhehe,capek juga ya. Klo udah gitu baru nyadar susahnya jadi pembantu,hahahha. Dapur,kamar mandi ama ruang tamu aku geber abis deh pokoknya, abis gitu punggung berasa kayak nenek2 pake tas ransel,hihihihi. Nelpon bokapnya landlord soal aer di kamar mandi yg bocor dan gak lama diapun muncul dan liat langsung masalahnya. Hmmm...abis yoga mesti cepet2 balik nih,soalnya dia mo dateng lagi jam setengah 8an. Pokoknya seharian kayak ibu rumah tangga deh. Dan ternyata, sama sekali gak enak. Capek, boring dan jadi laper abis gitu,hihihihi.
Mesti siap2 nih, mo berangkat kelas yoga setengah 6. Hari ini kok sepi banget ya rasanya. Ya udah deh,ta..ta |
me at 1:59 PM
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| Wednesday, September 24, 2003 |
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..lagi sensi,nih..I feel better today, after being so upset yesterday. I'm upset with myself, cause I didn't get what I want. But then, I realised that I just too sensitive lately. I should be more understanding and accept him the way he is. Sorry,Naughty...I was upset with you again. And you still here with me, even after I gave you another bad day. I'll be better, I promise.
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me at 8:52 AM
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| Tuesday, September 23, 2003 |
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stop crying, stop fighting
stop accepting,stop forgiving
just stop everything!!
can you see that your heart is bleeding
can you feel that your mind is numb and cool
look!! stop feel sorry for yourself
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me at 6:53 PM
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another thing being forget, another moment being left with emptyness
another story..another excuse
another disappoitnment with you
i thought you will never forget me |
me at 7:53 AM
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| Monday, September 22, 2003 |
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I HATE HIGH HEELHari ini kerja lagi, setelah 2 minggu absen ke kantor. Baru nyampe train station deket rumah, kakiku udah teriak2 minta sepatunya dicopot. Dasar akunya yg norak, gak feminin sama sekali ato belum terbiasa, tapi saben Senin klo pas kerja pasti deh kakiku yg bermasalah ama sepatu yg aku pake. Khan emang mesti dressed up, makanya mau gak mau mesti pake sepatu berhak. Abisnya saben hari aku yg slalu pake sepatu kets ato sendal, jadi jarang banget pake sepatu hak. Sumpah, kali ini tumitku lecet2 dengan suksesnya. Padahal udah beli sepatu baru dengan hak yg gak seberapa tinggi, tapi tetep aja kakiku sakit. Tau deh, Jumat ini klo kerja mesti pake sepatu yg model gimana lagi biar kakiku gak sakit. Hari ini gak seberapa boring dikantor, soalnya ada kerjaan. Bantu2 mbak Dian translate artikel inggris ke indo. Hehhehe...susah euy, udah lupa ama bahasa indo yg baik dan benar soalnya. Siangnya lunch ama Duncan bentar, trus kita mesti yg balik ke kantor masing2. Dia sih kantornya rada jauh dari kantorku, mesti naek tram sekitar 20 menitan klo trafficnya lagi lancar. Biasanya sih trus kita ketemu lagi pas abis kerja dan pulang bareng, cuman hari ini dia mo ke dokter, ya udah...pulang sendiri deh. Sampe rumah dengan langkah cukup terseok2 soalnya kaki udah minta ampun perihnya, mana keujanan lagi. Begitu copot sepatu, baru bisa senyum lagi soalnya beban hari ini telah terlewati.
Aku khan udah lama banget pengen makan perkedel kayak bikinan nyokap nih, akhirnya malem ini terkabulkan juga. Bikin sendiri lho,hihihihi. Not bad, gak jauh2 amat ama bikinan mama dirumah. Udah bikin rada banyakan soalnya Duncan bilang mo dinner dirumah, tapi dianya gak nongol ampe sekarang. Mana udah masak nasi rada banyakan ama bikin mie telur plus cornet, eh..dianya gak dateng2, ya udah dinner sendiri deh. Gak pa2, dianya lupa kali ato ketemuan ama temennya di city. Aku gak mau terlalu berprasangka buruk ama dia, kasian dia, akhir2 ini aku omelin mulu,hihihihi. Ya udah deh, gak tau mo nulis apaan lagi. Capek, mo manjain kaki dikasur dulu. Udah diplester sih, cuman masih rada senut2 gitu klo kepegang. Oia,dengerin lagunya Marcel yg Semusim asli bikin mellow deh. Jadi inget ama seseorang nih, udah semusim lebih gak denger kabar dari dia. Udah lupa kali ya, padahal aku masih inget banget lho ama dia. Udah ah, gak mau sedih2an lagi, dia udah bahagia kok, masa aku masih berharap2 lagi ke dia. Enggak deh,makasih. |
me at 6:48 PM
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| Sunday, September 21, 2003 |
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 Another sunny day!! I went to the computer market today with Duncan and Danie, his mate. Actually, I'm not that interesting to go there with him, it must be boring..that's what I thought. He was okay when I said I don't wanna go, then he said, "You know what, there's guy who love computer very much but his girlfriend doesn't. But she still go to the computer market and holding his hand. She's there just because she wanna spend the time with him. Could you do the same thing for me?" His words goes to my heart and slapped it pretty hard. Felt so guilty, cause he always be there with me everytime I hanged out with my friends. I know, he's not really like some of my friends, but he still there and hold my hand. That's why I was there with him today. Maybe I'll be bored but I will holding his hand for sure. And you know what, actually it was pretty fun there. The stuffs is much much cheaper than the store. And I fell in love with one cute mouse and a small MP3 player. I wanna buy it, but not now. Maybe next month, cause I have to save my money.
Afterwards, we went to the beach. Yeaaa...I love beach. Actually I wanna go to the Luna Park, but I prefer go to the beach first. Maybe next week I'll go the Luna Park. Luna Park is like Dufan, smaller but it's okay. After beach, I did my laundry. Then back home. I'm pretty tired but I had a good weekend, so that's more important,right. Ok, I better go to bed now, have to work tomorrow. Damn...I don't wanna go to work but I don't have any choice. Nite..nite,sleep tight tonight.
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me at 7:51 PM
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| Saturday, September 20, 2003 |
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 Semalem ke drive-in ama Duncan. Wow, asik deh. Hehhehe,maklum aku orang kampung, makanya seneng banget semalem. Sebelumnya nemenin dia bayar membership di MCG, stadion football yg terkenal disini. Gede banget tempatnya, lagi2 aku terbengong2 ngeliatnya. Bener2 kayak orang udik banget kemaren,hehehhe. Film pertama yg kita liat, 'Freaky Friday', not bad. Abis itu nonton film kedua, 'Bad Boys', lumayan bagus, typical american movie. Pulangnya kita lewat jalan2 yg belum pernah aku lewatin sebelumnya. Lewat jembatan, tunnel, liat gedung2 tinggi. Dan lagi2 aku yg liatin semua itu dengan senyum2 terpana. Kasian deh, baru nyadar selama ampir 2 taun disini, aku ternyata belum pernah kemana2. Setiap harinya aku abisin dikampus, dikamar, dan didepan laptop. Dulu sebelum serumah ama Fajar, aku khan tinggal ama houseparent. Jadi kebebasanku yang rada2 terbelenggu gitu,hihihihi. Dan sejak pindah rumah, jadi kayak kucing lepas gitu, maen mulu. Kenal ama orang2 baru yang banyak banget ngasi aku pelajaran dan pengalaman. Dan sejak kenal Duncan, hari2 hitam putihku pun jadi berwarna. Ketawa2 dan gak kesepian lagi.
Duncan lagi nonton footie ama nyokapnya siang ini di MCG. Hmmm...aku ngapain ya abis ini. Cuaca lagi bagus nih, tapi gak tau mo kemana. Barusan nelpon Dana, ngajakin ngupi, tapi dianya lagi gak mood jalan. Dia lagi patah ati soalnya cowok yg dia cintain balik ke Korea. Life goes on, don't let him ruined your life again,Friend. Mo nelpon rumah aja deh abis gini, mbak Ly pulang ke Surabaya hari ini. Dia homesick tuh, kangen ama Surabaya katanya. Aku kangen rumah juga benernya, tapi life goes on, no matter what. Enjoy the weekend, Everybody. |
me at 9:25 AM
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| Friday, September 19, 2003 |
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 IT'S SCHOOL HOLIDAY!! Actually my holiday start next monday, but today's class is cancelled, so I got extra days for the holiday. Yesterday I did my marketing test which was pretty good, hehehhe..I wrote too much bullshit about marketing stuff. I hate marketing. And my yoga class lastnight was little bit different, cause Helen, my teacher wasn't there. We got a new teacher who is have different way for each posture, but I can cope with it, just little bit different. Then met Duncan afterwards, bought some liquids and back home. You know what, he's addict with Indomie now because of me,hahhaha. He loves those fried noddles.
I dreamt about my mum lastnight. She was telling me to back home soon, and it's kind a weird. I'll call her today, make sure everything is alright at home. Maybe she miss me, or she wanna talk to me. I miss my mum, sometime. Especially when I'm sick, or being lazy to cook my food. Sometime, my mum could be the most annoying person but sometime I miss her like hell. Since my dad staying home all the time, my mum is change. She's cool, fun and understanding. We used to go shopping together when I was at home. And the only things that always be the same everytime I back home is she always spoil me with her cooking. Yummy foods will be ready for me all the time. I know I made her sad many time, she cried hundreads time for me, but she never hate me. She always forgive me, she forgive everybody who hurt her heart, that's why I'm so proud of her. I remember, when something terrible happened in my family, I know it was broke her heart,but my mum always smile and said that everything is okay everytime I asked her. I know, she wanna tell me but she don't want me to get hurt aswell,so she sacrificed her feeling for me. That time I knew what going on, it broke my heart too, but if my mum can be that strong, why I can't do the same thing?
You know what,Guys...we are owe too many things to our mum. We owed them a thousand tears, and hearts broken. So, wherever you are now, never forget your mum. Never hate your mum whatever she ever said to you. Those nasty and bad words will make you grow wiser, believe me, I know that.
No matter where I am, no matter what I do, I always thinking about you. I'll make you proud,Mama. I'll make happy, I promise. Please, forgive me for all I ever done, all the bad things that cut your heart all the time. Miss you,Mama. |
me at 11:29 AM
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| Tuesday, September 16, 2003 |
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 I was waiting for Duncan yesterday, he supposed to pick me up about 6 pm, then we go to cinema. But, he turned up about 10 pm. It was weird, cause when I opened the door and see his face, all my disappointment was gone. I know something is wrong and he wasn't forget to pick me up, it just something terrible just happened to him. When he said sorry and hug me, there's nothing I can say except, "It's ok."
After that, we finally went to cinema to see 'Pirate of the Caribbean' in Jams Factor. It was funny movie, I guess, cause I kept laughing on Johnny Depp's actings. I tried to make him laugh, and it works. I'm happy to saw him laugh and acted silly like usual.
Dearest Naughty...
Know that your thoughts live in my minds
and your spirits dwells in my soul...
So, when you're feeling weak, come to me
and I'll give you my strength...
HAVE A NICE DAY... |
me at 9:44 AM
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| Sunday, September 14, 2003 |
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if you wanna go...just go
if you wanna leave..just leave
if you wanna stay...just stay
nobody force you to be here,anyway
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me at 1:23 PM
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 There's something that I learnt last night. Never expect anything more than you can't have. NEVER!!! Every person is just different with each other. They have they own way to say and express their feeling. And what we can do is accept the differences and believe that there's must be a reason behind the truth.
But, sometime I have a problem with accepting the reality, especially when it knock me back with pains. When I care and love with someone, I wanna be with that person all the time and that's my problem. And it's really hurt when someone say, "I need some time to be alone." It's does cut me badly. I feel rejected and it's pushing me away. I rang Rezia lastnight, we laughed and talked about the old times. It feel so comfortable when you have someone that can understand you. I don't need to say much about my feeling and she will know what's on my mind straightaway. I guess, I'm lucky to have a friend like her. We can talk anything that we can't shared it with the others. We can laugh and talk freely, no excuse..no fear..and no secret. I'm glad I can talked with her lastnight.
Weekend is over. Maybe I should think about my changing plan seriously before I decide whether I'll stay here longer or back home for good. Stay longer, find more knowledge, experience and happiness. Or back home, find a job and start build my own future. I know, it's up to me, but still there are many things around me that I have to consider. Don't let this little disappointment ruined everything. I'm not going to let it break my heart again. No more tears, cause when love is hurt, it won't work. |
me at 9:16 AM
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| Saturday, September 13, 2003 |
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IT'S WEEKEND, YEAAHH!! Finally, yesterday I went to cinema for 'Finding Nemo'. I love the movie, it was great animation and touching story aswell. Poor Duncan, he was pretty tired after work but still tried hard to make me happy with watched that movie. After that, we back home by tram...gossiping and laughing like usual then we had dinner in indonesian resto near home. Everything was perfect yesterday.
Today's my mum's birthday. I rang her 10 o'clock in the morning, wishes a great birthday for this year. It's the third time I can't celebrate her birthday, cause I have to be here and there...far away from home. Sorry,Mama...I hope I can make it next year. Mbak Ly missed her birthday too, cause she's in Jakarta now. She sent me sms, said that she miss 'nasi kuning' too. In my family, we have a tradition for birthday. Every member of the family's birthday, my mum always cook a complete nasi kuning which is a yummy yellow rice with all the dishes. We also give the birthday present and no excuse to forget about it. This year, I missed 4 birthday that are mbak Hap, Papa, Mama and mbak Ly birthdays.
Duncan is go to his friend's birthday party now. I don't wanna come, and I don't know why,actually. Maybe I just too afraid that I'm going to be bored in there. It's not good, I should come with him, be there and get to know his friend too. Well, I'll come next time, hope so. He'll come to my place after the party, and maybe we are going to do something fun afterward. Rezia sent me an sms just before, telling that she in music concert now with Epha and Tia. So jealous, wish I can be there with them, must be fun. So bored, I just watched 'Antz' in telly, it was okay..not bad for saturday night. Now...what should I do next while waiting for Duncan? Sleeping? Yeah..right, I slept a lot today. Lazy bum!! Anyway, have a nice weekend, Everybody. |
me at 7:13 PM
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 HAPPY BIRTHDAY,MAMA.
Panjang umur, sehat selalu, tambah sabar dan bahagia terus.
I love you,Mama..thanks for being my wonderful mother.. |
me at 1:00 PM
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| Thursday, September 11, 2003 |
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 Tadi pas di tram sepulang dari city, aku liat 3 anak kecil,kayaknya sih sodaraan soalnya mukanya mirip. Yg paling gede cewek, dan 2 laennya cowok. Pas mo turun, yg cewek turun duluan trus mengandeng tangan 2 cowok kecil2 itu. Sweet banget deh, aku sampe senyum sendiri ngeliatnya. Jadi inget ama mbak Ly dan mbak Hap di Surabaya. Kita emang gak semesra itu waktu kecil, cuman kita cukup deket satu sama laen. Tapi kita punya banyak kenangan jaman kecil dulu. Kalo ada yg nakalin aku jaman SD dulu, aku ngadunya ke mbak Hap,soalnya dia yg rada2 preman gitu waktunya mudanya,hehehhehe. Klo keabisan duit jajan, mintanya ke mbak Ly,hehhehe. Kita bertiga pernah satu sekolah, waktu aku kelas 1 SD, mbak Hap kelas 4 SD, dan mbak Ly kelas 6 SD. Satu sekolah, tapi gak pernah berangkat bareng bertiga. Mbak Hap selalu berangkat ama ganknya, aku berangkat ama mbak Ly, digandeng gitu ampe kelasku,hahahhaha. Paling sering berantem ama mbak Hap, soalnya dia suka jailin aku mulu. Klo ama mbak Ly deket banget, bahkan ampe sekarang. Jadi kangen ama suasana bergosipnya kita bertiga. Biasanya ngumpul dikamar, ato di ayunan ditaman belakang halaman rumah. Sambil ngopi dan nyemil2, bergosip2 ria ampe magrib trus pada ngacir soalnya pasti yg diomelin mama disuruh mandi,hehehhe. Gak tau knapa,tapi lagi bener2 kangen ama suasana rumah. Kangen ama Gilang dan Billa yg katanya tambah nakal. Kangen ama mama-papa yg kadang suka nyebelin tapi kadang bikin aku ketawa2 sampe nangis. Kangen ngobrol2 ama mbak Ly sampe pagi dikamarnya, ato dengerin komentar2 judesnya mbak Hap yg rasanya udah biasa banget dikupingku. Mungkin karena bulan depan udah mulai puasa dan aku mesti jalani puasa disini lagi, bahkan lebaran juga bakal disini, untuk yg pertama kalinya. Dulu pernah lebaran di Bournemouth ama mbak Ly, kita yg sedih gitu soalnya suasananya sepi banget.
Udah ah..aku gak mau terlalu mellow2 manjain perasaanku. Ntar malem nelpon mama deh, lagi pada kangen ama aku, kata mbak Ly semalem. Jadi nyadar, klo keluarga itu berarti banget di kehidupan kita. Yg kadang suka nyebelin, nge-BT-in,ngeselin, tapi juga ngangenin banget klo kita gak lagi ada disekitar mereka. Emang bener kata pepatah, "We never realise what we already have until it's gone." |
me at 1:53 PM
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| Wednesday, September 10, 2003 |
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 GIRLFRIENDS ARE...
~Girlfriends bring food and medicine when you are sick
~Girlfriends cry with you and keep your secrets
~Girlfriends give advice when you ask for it. Sometimes you take it, sometimes you don't
~Girlfriends don't always tell you that you're right, but they're usually honest
~Girlfriends still love you, even when they don't agree with your choices
~Girlfriends might send you a birthday card, but they might not. It does not matter in the least
~Girlfriends laugh with you, and you don't need canned jokes to start the laughter
~Girlfriends pull you out of jams
~Girlfriends don't keep a calendar that lets them know who hosted the other last
~Girlfriends will give a party for your son or daughter when they get married or have a baby, in whichever order that comes!
~And girlfriends are there for you, in an instant and truly, when the hard times come
~Girlfriends listen when you lose a job or a boyfriend
~Girlfriends listen when your boyfriend break your heart
~Girlfriends listen when your parent's minds and bodies fail
~My girlfriends bless my life. Once we were young, with no idea of the incredible joys or the incredible sorrows that lay ahead. Nor did we know how much we would need each other.
I miss my girlfriends in Surabaya. I miss the time when I was with them. Rezia,Epha,Tia, Praptie...I'll see you soon,Girls. |
me at 9:16 AM
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| Monday, September 08, 2003 |
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what's wrong with me..
when everything is settle down and perfect
I feel numb
when finally I find a star to light my day
I feel unsecure
maybe I just not good enough
maybe I just don't deserve it
or maybe I just too stupid to be happy
then I feel lonely again
I love you, I really do
I need you, more than you ever know
I miss you, every single second of it
but I'm too naive to admit it
that my day is blank without you
Nite..nite,my Nemo. Hope I feel better tomorrow.
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me at 8:14 PM
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 Weekend kmaren capek tapi seru deh. Jumat malem, aku pergi ama Enzi. Rencananya sih mo nonton, tapi kita keenakan ngobrol2 di pub ampe jam 1 malem, jadi acaranya nontonnya di delay deh,lagian aku juga gak seberapa mood mo nonton ama dia. Sabtu siang kerumah Dad, ngasiin kado buat Father's Day. Pulangnya dijemput Duncan trus makan di China Bar ama Dana juga, abis gitu baru balik kerumahku. Malemnya ke Irish Pub ama Duncan, Dana dan Oni. Gak tau knapa, rencana gak semulus seperti yang dibayangkan, akhirnya jam 10an udah balik kerumahku lagi. Ya udah, kita ngobrol2 dirumah dan maen spin the bottle ampe pagi,hehehehe. Oni ama Dana ngelanjutin ke Crown jam 3an, aku dan Duncan udah tewas duluan. Besoknya yg pada males2an bangun, asli suasananya bener2 yg lazy day gitu. Aku bikin nasi goreng buat breakfast, ngasi makan orang2 kelaparan yg ada dirumah. Sore, nganterin Dana pulang trus ke cemetary ngunjungin Duncan's dad cause it was father's day. Sayang banget, kita dateng udah kesorean, pintu masuknya udah ditutup. Duh, jadi gak enak ama Duncan, gak jadi nengokin bokapnya. Dia keliatan rada sedih, cuman berusaha ditutupin dari aku. "Next weekend we'll come again,ok, I promise" kataku sambil ngelus2 kpala botaknya (Naughty sekarang botak, abis cukur seminggu yg lalu).
Abis gitu mampir ke McD soalnya kita kelaperan. Sebelum balik mampir kerumah Andrew,temennya Duncan, aku pengen liat Paris, anaknya Andrew. Ngobrol2 bentar, trus balik deh. Oiya, sebelum balik kita mampir ke bottle shop dulu, eh...aku nemu Martini, dan murah lagi cuman $12. Ya udah malem ditutup ama martini dan tipi. And that's why I got hangover this morning. Berat banget kepala, ngantuk mulu bawaannya padahal bangunnya juga udah jam 11. Ck...ck..ck..kebo banget ya,hihihihi. Bangun trus ke City buat lunch ama Duncan dan abis gitu balik kerumah bareng. That's it I guess for today. Mo bobo lagi..masih ngantuk,hehehhee. Eh, hari ini aku juga udah mempermalukan diri sendiri soalnya nelpon seseorang yg udah gak seharusnya aku telpon lagi. Dan ternyata sambutannya sangatlah menyebalkan, gayanya selangit bikin aku nyesel abis2an abis gitu. Kata Duncan, mungkin aku mesti bener2 ngerelain orang itu buat pergi dari hidupku. He's right, he just don't know what a friendship means. So..bye..bye, hope you get what you're looking for. |
me at 5:49 PM
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| Tuesday, September 02, 2003 |
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Kenalin, yang kiri namanya Kitty, ini kucingnya Duncan, yang suka jealous klo aku pas lagi maen kerumah Duncan. Umurnya udah lumayan uzur, tepatnya sih aku lupa, yg pasti Duncan suka manggil dia 'nenek',hehhehe. Meski kadang2 nyebelin, tapi benernya aku mulai sayang ama dia. Paling seneng ngelus2 bulunya yg alus banget, ato meluk dia. Klo jealousnya kumat, dia suka jalan diatasku, kepala dan leherku suka juga diinjek ama dia, dan aku pasti yg langsung ngomel2 dan Kitty pasti dapet hukuman dari Duncan yaitu dikucilin dipojok ruangan,hahhahhaa *ketawa penuh kemenangan*
Kalo yang kanan namanya Lui. Lui ini kucingnya Mia, temenku yg sering dititipin dirumah klo Mia lagi pergi liburan. Pertama kali dititipin, Lui masih takut ama aku, Fajar dan Prima. Dia suka banget ngumpet di kolong tempat tidur, jadi mesti bongkar tempat tidur dulu klo mo ngambil dia. Tapi gak lama, dia udah mulai kenal dan deket ama aku, soalnya kita jadi roommate selama dia dititipin disini. Pernah tidur ama Fajar sekali, abis itu Fajar gak mau lagi soalnya Lui suka nakal klo malem. Weekend kmaren Lui dititipin lagi disini dan kali ini dia udah gak takut lagi ama kita. Dia masih suka ngumpet dikolong tempat tidurku klo aku gak ada dirumah. Dia manja dan nakal banget,maunya klo tidur mesti dikelonin mulu dan kuku2nya lumayan tajam, makanya tanganku jadi tempat gigitan dan cakarannya. I don't mind, I know she's just wanna play. Lui udah pulang semalem, sepi juga gak ada temen maen. Dia juga ninggalin satu cakaran di atas hidungku. Gak kerasa sih pas nyakarnya,mungkin pas aku lagi tidur kali ya..hihihi. Anyway, I loves cat very much. Aku juga mulai suka anjing, meski masih rada takut juga klo ketemu anjing yg gede dan agresif. Anjing itu binatang yg setia, lebih setia dan pinter daripada kucing benernya. Cuman karena aku muslim, dan gak boleh kena liurnya anjing, jadi tetep milih kucing deh.
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me at 2:56 PM
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| Monday, September 01, 2003 |
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 JANGAN MENIKAH KARENA...
1. Jangan menikah karena harta
Tidak ada gunanya hidup bergelimangan harta tanpa cinta. Harta dapat datang dan pergi setiap saat. "Cinta" yang sesat dan sesaat dapat diperoleh setiap saat, tapi cinta yang sejati tidak dapat dibeli dengan harta.
2. Jangan menikah karena perasaan asmara
Rasa tertarik, simpati, naksir, yang merupakan asmara yang sering disalahartikan sebagai cinta. Asmara itu bukan cinta. Asmara dapat cepat berubah oleh rupa, harta, tempat dan keadaan. Asmara itu buta, tidak tahan lama dan tidak tahan uji. Cinta perlu diuji dalam suka dan duka dengan mata terbuka.
3. Jangan menikah karena rupa saja
Kecantikan yang diluar memang indah, tapi dapat luntur termakan umur. Utamakanlah kecantikan yang di dalam.
4. Jangan menikah karena iba
lba (rasa kasihan) memang baik dan harus ada dalam hidup kita, tapi tidak boleh menjadi dasar pemikahan. Kasihan dapat habis, tapi kasih tidak berkesudahan. Dasar pemikahan adalah kasih, bukan kasihan
5. Jangan menikah untuk kepuasan sex saja
Memang sex suci dan penting dalam hubungan suami-istri, namun tidak boleh menjadi tujuan utama dari pemikahan. Sex hanyalah salah satu bagian dari pernikahan. Orang yang hanya mengejar kenikmatan sex akan kecewa dan terjerat oleh kesusahan yang diciptakannya sendiri.
6. Jangan menikah karena paksaan keluarga
Seorang anak emang harus berkorban dan berbakti kepada keluarga, namun tidak boleh menyerah dalam hal nikah, kalau mereka memang salah dan anda benar. Berdoalah dan berikanlah penjelasan kepada mereka, jangan dengan kekerasan.
7. Jangan menikah karena desakan usia
Bila usia sudah menjelang senja dan rekan-rekan sudah berpasangan, orang akan mulai gelisah (terutama pada wanita). Banyak orang akhimya "asal tabrak dan sikat." Hindarilah tindakan tersebut. Sabadah dan yakinilah bahwa Tuhan sudah menyediakan yang terbaik untuk anda. Jangan takut kehabisan jatah dan kadaluarsa.
8. Jangan menikah untuk membalas jasa
Orang yang telah berbuat baik perlu dibalas, tapi jangan dengan pernikahan.
Salah satu hal lain yang tidak boleh dilupakan, dan merupakan yang terpenting adalah jangan menikah tanpa pengertian dan persiapan dengan tindakan yang nyata. - Menikahlah menurut pola rencana Tuhan - Daripada salah dan mengundang derita, lebih baik tidak menikah. Jika tidak diteguhkan oleh Tuhan. Karena Tuhanlah yang menciptakan manusia sepasang-sepasang. Tanpa persetujuan Tuhan, tidak mungkin manusia dapat bersatu !
I got this one from Dina today. It's pretty good thing to look at when you wanna get marry, not me though,hehehehe. But I believe one thing, whatever reason you have, just be happy. Cause I know one guy who got married because of his family, and eventhough we doesn't communicate pretty often, but deep down of my heart, I know he already realised that he's doing the right thing for his life. I'm happy for him, and I know I'll find my own happiness. |
me at 6:26 PM
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IKUT BERDUKA CITA ATAS MENINGGALNYA INDRA SAFERA
Smoga arwahnya diterimanya disisi Allah SWT, amien 
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me at 5:12 PM
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