| Wednesday, June 30, 2004 |
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...love...
To People Who Are...SINGLE
Love is like a butterfly. The more you chase it the more it eludes you. But if you just let it fly, it will come to you when you least expect it. Love can make you happy but often it hurts but love's only special when you give it to someone who is really worth it. So take your time.
To People Who Are...NOT SO SINGLE
Love isn't about becoming somebody else's "perfect person." It's about finding someone who helps you become the best person you can be.
To People Who Are...PLAYBOY/GIRL TYPE
Never say "I love you" if you don't care. Never talk about feelings if they aren't there. Never touch a life if you mean to break a heart. Never look in the eye when all you do is lie. The cruelest thing a guy can do to a girl is to let her fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch her fall and it works both ways...
To My Friends Who Are...MARRIED
Love is not about "it's your fault", but "I'm sorry." Not "where are you", but "I'm right here." Not "how could you", but "I understand." Not "I wish you were", but "I'm thankful you are."
To People Who Are...ENGAGED
The true measure of compatibility is not the years spent together but how good you are for each other.
To People Who Are...HEARTBROKEN
Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut as deep as you allow them to go. The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them.
To People Who Are...NAIVE
How to be in love: Fall but don't stumble, be consistent but not too persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand, and get hurt but never keep the pain.
To People Who Are...POSSESSIVE
It breaks your heart to see the one you love happy with someone else but it's more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you.
To People Who Are...AFRAID TO CONFESS
Love hurts when you break up with someone. It hurts even more when someone breaks up with you. But love hurts the most when the person you love has no idea how you feel.
To People Who Are...STILL HOLDING ON
A sad thing about life is when you meet someone and fall in love, only
to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and that you have wasted years on someone who wasn't worth it. If he isn't worth it now he's not going to be worth it a year or 10 years from now. Let go.....
...if you love someone,say it out loud..before the time pass by...
cause you never know, maybe your heaven is there with that special person
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me at 11:53 AM
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| Tuesday, June 29, 2004 |
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...No More School...
Last Friday was my last day of school. So,no more school for the rest of my life. It was great but also sad, because it's mean I really have to go. Actually, I like my course, Multimedia. It's fun, challenging, full of creativity, tough but also amazing. 6 months course flies just like that, so quick..I even didn't realise that I had so much knowledge from it. Of course, it's different with my previous course which is Business in Advertising. Anyway, I'm happy with I got from both of the courses. Hope it will help me a lot to get a job that I always dream of.
 Today, I paid my ticket to back home. Don't know why, feel so mellow today. I think because of last nite. Yeah, I kinda screw up last nite. I feel bad,still..and I don't know how to fix it. Never realise that I put so much pains to the one I love. I feel so sorry,especially for myself. This is something that I never known before. I can't think!! Need to pull myself out of everything now. Be alone, and try to teach myself how to love and how to treat others. I'm a bad bad girl.
Sorry, I'm not in the good mood to write a happy story of me at the moment. I've been through so many bad dreams that haunted me every nite,lately. I seen something that I shouldn't see,you know. And it's not cool at all. I hate someone so bad,because I don't know her, but I know everything about her. Sound really creepy, but it's true. I don't know how, I just did. And I've been fight for my right against her, because I know she want something that used to be hers, but now it's mine. I don't care, I will fight for it. It's mine...never gonna be yours anymore!! SO,GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY LIFE,BITCH!!!
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me at 1:33 PM
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| Wednesday, June 23, 2004 |
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Lagi ditempat Duncan...bt,laper,ngantuk dan lapeerrr!! Gila...dari pagi cuman makan roti doang,ama kopi dan beberapa rokok. Sekarang udah jam 8 lebih dan perut udah seriosa minta diisi. BTnya gini nih klo makan ditempat orang, gak bisa makan duluan,mesti nunggu ampe ditawarin. Bukannya apa2 sih,cuman emang makanan belum mateng aja. Heran, klo udah tau makanan bakal selama ini dimasak, knapa gak masak dari seminggu kemaren, biar mateng sekarang.
Gak ada pikiran apa2 saat ini, cuman satu....gue laper..hehehhe!!
Jadi pengen pulang, bikin mie kuah yang pedes..nyam..nyam. Hiks...laper!!
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me at 5:10 PM
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| Thursday, June 10, 2004 |
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A girl asked a guy if he thought she was pretty, he said...no. She asked him if he would want to be with her forever....and he said no. She then asked him if she were to leave would he cry, and once again he replied with a no.She had heard enough. As she walked away, tears streaming down her face the boy grabbed her arm and said,
"You're not pretty you're beautiful. I dont want to be with you forever. I NEED to be with you forever. And I wouldnt cry if you walked away but I'd die..."
One of my bestfriend,Noonita, sent me this forward. Isn't it sweet? So, I wanna share it with everybody too. I'm going to Canberra tonight with Dunc. Woo hoo,so excited. Our first trip with plane together. I have to take shower now and check the luggage, make sure everything is okay. Have a great weekend... |
me at 2:04 PM
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| Sunday, June 06, 2004 |
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a place i called home
For almost two and half year, I can called Melbourne as my home. Surabaya still my first home, a place where my family and friends lives. A place where I don't have to afraid to be feel lonely, cause there are a lot of things that will make my day colourful. But, in here, Melbourne, I feel it aswell. I don't have much friends here, but I know, I have some people that will help me out if I need something. And for sure, in here, half of my heart will be always stay no matter where I go. Next month, I have to leave that half heart here, together with someone who promise me to keep it safely. So, I'll back to my first home, only with a half heart. Hehehhe,what a poor girl,huh?!
Anyway, I have to move on,right. Maybe that's my path, that I have to follow. I had a great weekend this time,hahahaha..finally!!
Me and Dunc, we went to his beach house, spent the whole weekend there. Friday, after school, we went to his twentysixhundread thing, then back home, started packing and drove there. We arrived almost midnight, started the fire, then crashed out. Saturday, woke up about 1pm, and went to Safeway to bought some stuff. We decided to drove back to Melbourne cause his little sister had a computer problem at home. What a sweet brother he is :). We stopped in my place to grabbed the heater cause lastnight was so freezing cold. Had dinner in KFC, then drove again to Dromana Drive-In, to watched Raising Helen and Stuck on You. Pretty funny movies. We back to the beach house and had a bit of drinks then went to bed. Today, we woke up a bit early than the other day, 12 pm...hahahha. We had a little bit fight, but then we made it up nicely, very nice actually ;) ..heheehhe. On the way home, we stopped on the beach just to seen the sunset. The sky was so beautiful. It was pink,blue, red,orange and green. Never seen the sky like that before. I really like to see the sky, i don't know why. When I'm upset and seen the sky, I feel better. Same when I'm happy, I look at the sky, and it seems the colours of the sky kinda represent my feeling.
 This is my graduation pic the other day. I like this pic, I looks so happy there. Of course, it was my graduation. My parent wasn't there, but my man there to completed my happy smiles. I called home tonight. I talked with my mum and she said many things to me. I'm going home,soon. Still can't believe that, but it's really going to happen very soon. Who's going to take care of my man when I'm home? Who's going to cuddle me the way he always do to me? Who's going to make me laugh like him? Who's going to cook him lunch after this? So many questions that I couldn't answer. So many fears that I couldn't bear. But I have to go,this time, no more excuse. Tonight, before I go to bed, I wanna pray. I wanna ask Allah to give me strength and answer my questions. I really hope, this choice will be my last place to have my happiness. Amien.
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me at 6:13 PM
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